Travelling in Taiwan

Hihi my darlings,

I am updating y’all on my travels in Taiwan right now! Haha, I know, why am I wasting my time in a cafe blogging when I could be out exploring? Well, because I’m on my way back tomorrow to the US, and I have finished all my shopping already. Plus, I have to meet up with my dad later and I do not have a phone to tell him where I’m at, so pretty much I CANNOT get lost in my own little world. Next time I’m out travelling I’ll be wandering all over for sure, but for now, I am in a much needed relaxing mode due to my tiring, stressful trip.

So why am I saying it’s stressful? I’m def. not as stressed as my dad was during this past week, but I’ve had my moments too of just being a good respectful granddaughter/niece. So let me explain this whole chinese new year scenario to everyone. In Taiwan, the culture is for the boys of the family to go back to the parent’s household the day before chinese new year, aka Chinese New Year Eve. During this day, there’s the usual big feast that needs to be made, and offered to the buddhist gods not sure exactly how to describe it other than that . So, it’s like cooking a Thanksgiving feast, plus the fact that you must go out and shop for all these ingredients the morning of, and make sure that we got all of the necessary dishes. And since my grandmother isn’t doing too well anymore, my dad had to cook this big feast, with the help of me of course, AND he had to cook practically every meal, with the help of me again, and I had to do the dishes too every meal. It was tiring also needing to bring the dishes from one floor to the other every meal for my grandparents to eat since my grandpa can’t walk well. But, I honestly didn’t mind all of that work. It was of course tiring, but I enjoyed spending the time in the kitchen with my pops, and serving my grandparents. What was stressful was my uncle…

So, I was already prepping myself for my uncle to get to my grandparents house (btw, we’re from farmer’s land so it’s very 3rd world country here, or maybe 2nd world since apparently a starbucks was just built in the town!). Anyways, prepping myself for my uncle’s comments. First things first, he gets here and makes a comment about my skin. He constantly comments on my skin having pimples and telling me what I have to do and what i shouldn’t do. Meaning things I should eat and things I shouldn’t. Also telling me how to be healthy, pretty much EVERYTHING I ALREADY KNOW! And yet in this asian culture, I have to be respectful and just nodd and agree and cannot talk back. THEN it’s the commenting about how I need to learn how to cook. Listening to him telling me how he used to cook when he was just in grade school, and how I really need to learn, and how it’s not difficult, and how I should cook…etc..etc… And what do I need to do? Just keep nodding and agreeing. I had practically a whole week of this. EVERY single EFFING DAY of him commenting on my pimples. Telling me I need to eat more fruit, and pointing out every single pimple. I know, just ignore him right? BUT you know you can’t ignore someone when they’re talking directly at you. So I just kept getting stressed about my skin more and more everyday.

On the bright side, I did buy a bunch of skin products and yummy stuff to eat to bring back to the US and to share! I got 3 mosquito bites on my face in addition to my acne, but I don’t care, I will survive! I have enjoyed spending tea time with my gramps everyday and giving my grandma hugs. =] I only have a few minutes left so I will post up some pictures later. Or you can view my instagram which I had posted some up already.

UPDATE…PICTURES BELOW!

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Dan Shui, Taipei

Dan Shui, Taipei

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Dan shui, Taipei

Dan shui, Taipei

Eating Fish stomach soup. It was so delicious...

Eating Fish stomach soup. It was so delicious…

Off to Taipei, leaving the country land to go to the big city!

Off to Taipei, leaving the country land to go to the big city!

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IT WAS SO HECTIC! SO MANY PEOPLE!

IT WAS SO HECTIC! SO MANY PEOPLE!

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Post chinese new year, we went to Ban Qiao to pray.

Post chinese new year, we went to Ban Qiao to pray.

Sugar cane! You gotta chomp in these and just chew on it to soak up the sugar, and spit out the rest.

Sugar cane! You gotta chomp in these and just chew on it to soak up the sugar, and spit out the rest.

NAME THAT VEGETABLE!

NAME THAT VEGETABLE!

Daddy buying vegetables in the morning for lunch and dinner for the day.

Daddy buying vegetables in the morning for lunch and dinner for the day.

Tea time with my grandparents! Best time of day.

Tea time with my grandparents! Best time of day.

Chinese new year meal

Chinese new year meal

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Grandma praying

Grandma praying

I used to love doing this! Then one time it got too hot, and I got scared, but I think I'm old enough to not get burned, plus this is more safe, not like the open fire we used to do it with.

I used to love doing this! Then one time it got too hot, and I got scared, but I think I’m old enough to not get burned, plus this is more safe, not like the open fire we used to do it with.

Paper gold money that you need to burn, for prosperity...?

Paper gold money that you need to burn, for prosperity…?

The "gods" at our home we offer to on pre chinese new year day.

The “gods” at our home we offer to on pre chinese new year day.

Grandma getting accupunctured!

Grandma getting accupunctured!

Grandma washing the pan

Grandma washing the pan

Pre chinese new year offering to the "gods"

Pre chinese new year offering to the “gods”

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Daddy daughter time in the kitchen!

Daddy daughter time in the kitchen!

Daddy cooking chinese new year meal

Daddy cooking chinese new year meal

Trying to put eye drops in for gramps, he yelled at me cuz I missed multiple times and wasted the eye drops =/

Trying to put eye drops in for gramps, he yelled at me cuz I missed multiple times and wasted the eye drops =/

Gramps getting accupunctured.

Gramps getting accupunctured.

This fruit is called lian wu in chinese...not sure what it's called in english! Apparently it is in season, now. It tastes crisp, and sweet, a little juicy.

This fruit is called lian wu in chinese…not sure what it’s called in english! Apparently it is in season, now. It tastes crisp, and sweet, a little juicy.

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Front of the vegetable market in the morning

Front of the vegetable market in the morning

Love you all!

Size Doesn’t Matter

Hihi my darlings,

Am I talking about a guy’s ding ding dong? Unfortunately…no… What am I talking about? I’m talking about us females, and the numerous sizes, scales, and brands of clothes that we have to deal with! No, this is not going to be a post complaining about how annoying it is to buy clothes, or find the right pair of jeans/pants that fit, or dress/skirt that fits perfectly. THAT post would be too long for discussion. I am here to discuss is personal experience of mine that has happened recently, and would like to shine a positive light on it.

A few days ago, I went shopping for some athletic wear, and I found this pair of SUPER CUTE leggings on final sale! I knew my size was a bit bigger for this brand, so I decided to try the bigger size, if it didn’t fit then I won’t have to buy it and save money… SURPRISINGLY they fit! Not sure if that’s fortunate for me, or unfortunate for my wallet. I bought them, and on the way home I kept thinking to myself, WOW I have NEVER purchased a pant this big before! Even during my college freshman 15 time period, I never needed to purchase a pant sized this big before! However, I was not feeling upset/concerned, or anxious to get home so I could change and run to the gym to lose weight or get my size down. I felt comfortable, and HAPPY that I got such a great deal on a pair of leggings. I did end up going to the gym after I went out to eat some delicious sushi, but not because I felt I HAD to, but because I was just so excited to wear my new leggings I couldn’t wait until tomorrow! If you know me, you’d know I’m not lying when I say I can’t wait. This is why I’m the worst gift giver because I can never wait until the actual day of celebration to give a gift because I want to just GIVE THE GIFT and see the SMILE on the person’s face…it’s soooooo exciting! But the point is not about me and how impatient I am about things that excite me, but about how I am at a point of my life where I feel comfortable with myself to accept the fact that these leggings were a size 8. Images at the end of post! I know that I eat healthy, and workout regularly, and I see changes in my body which is why I am comfortable with the size and my body. I feel energized everyday, and have been naturally waking up earlier and earlier just because!

Yes, it’s “all great for me” as some of you may be saying, and of course I know there are going to be people hating on me, and thinking “well of course you’re okay with it you skinny biotch”. First off, clearly I am not skinny if the legging I purchased was a size 8. Second of all, as I said before, I am comfortable with my size because I workout and eat healthy. And lastly, I am not stating that this may be the same for everyone, and that you shouldn’t exactly CARE about what size clothing you are, but CARE about your body then naturally size will not matter. If you eat junk, and treat your body with junk, and are unhappy about the size of clothing you are, then start changing your habits gradually to turn it into your lifestyle. However, if you know that you’re healthy, and you treat your body like how you should, then begin to realize that everyone is different. I know it’s been said before, and you hear it all the time, but just remind yourself that everyone’s body is different. Everyone’s genes are different, and though you may be striving for a certain image, or have a certain goal in mind, do not upset yourself if you’re not even coming close to that image. The most important thing to remember on this path to your goal is not to try to look or be like someone else, but to be yourself and look like yourself!

Now, why am I blogging about this? Recently, one of my friends has taken the initiative to change her lifestyle because of a size. Of course, this is probably not the ONLY reason, but after purchasing a size 8 legging myself, when I am usually a 4, I felt it was necessary to blog about size. My friend is beautiful as she is already, and always exhibits confidence. But because of this shocking surprise of a clothing size triggering herself to re-examine her body, and to change her diet habits a bit more drastically as well as her workouts a bit more drastically, she is striving to have a certain body she wants to achieve. I just want to remind everyone that when you do make these positive changes, your body may change in unexpected ways. For me, since I am of asian decent, duh, my butt has gotten bigger, and I am a bit curvier now too. Also, my diet is not as strict as some people may expect. I eat what I feel like my body is telling me. I listen to what my body tells me. If I am feeling a bit weaker than usual, I try to eat things that would fill me up and give me more energy, like fish/meat, and some delicious brown/black/white rice. If you are upping your workouts, please be aware that your diet needs extra focus. Some people forget that you are going to need healthy fat/calories to have energy to workout, since your body will be burning this during the workout! AND of course I’m not saying stuff your face with pizza/ mac n cheese/ fried chicken for the fat/calories, but not to limit yourself of healthy fats/calories and to actually use your OFF day of eating the foods you enjoy! Especially during this time of year, when it’s cold in the east coast, you’re going to need as much energy to protect yourself from viruses/ illness, and to prevent yourself from getting sick daily.

All in all, whatever changes you are deciding to do to your lifestyle, just remember that you are doing them for positive reasons and for YOURSELF. AND congrats on making these changes for yourself! So proud of you! It is not selfish to treat yourself  and spoil yourself, because then will you have the energy to care and treat others with as much respect as you have for yourself.

Side note, I’m going off to Taiwan tomorrow to see my grandparents and spend Chinese New Year with  them! Totally excited to go to the farmer’s market every morning for fresh foods/fruits/vegetables! I hope everyone will have a healthy and happy year/life! =] Below are the cute leggings this blog’s about! haha

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Love you all!

-WuMarksTheSpots

Much Needed Awakening

Hihi my darlings,

So, it has been 2 months since my last post, and I guess not much has gone on since then…other than the fact that I really needed to revisit this blog. I have completed my POP Pilates Group Fitness Certification, but have yet to find a job. A few days ago I got rejected by my first audition for becoming a Group Fitness Instructor, and that really shot me down. I am now back in the slump that I was in when I was last unemployed. I know people say that your career shouldn’t define you, but that cannot be said especially with differences in culture, and the way one was brought up, and by ONE I mean ME. I’m getting quite scared as I am rolling into the 3rd month of being unemployed. Do I regret my choice of quitting my job? NO. I am just feeling scared and a bit stressed. There are people I know who would like me to get a job, and sometimes I feel like I’m wasting my life away. For those who are unsure what exactly I am feeling, it is like having a long summer vacation back when you were a kid, without the camps, without the chores, without the summer reading, at the end of the summer where you’re just so sundried, and sit in front of the TV because there is nothing else to do, and you’re dreading the first day of school, but not really because you’re secretly excited that it’s starting again because then you’ll have something to do and people to talk to. That is how I feel.

Of course some people may think I am living that life, just chilling all the time, gyming, and being domestic… but this is not exactly what I had planned/in mind. Every time I think to myself, why can’t I take some time off? I stressed so much about the nonsense at my previous job, and others are not as lucky/fortunate as I am to be having this time off so I should truly embrace it, but I DON’T! I feel GUILTY! And if someone was telling me this about themselves I would tell them to embrace it, and to keep their head up and stay positive. Everyone gets rejected, and it just takes time and patience. SO that is exactly what I am trying to do… but it doesn’t change the fact about how I feel/been feeling. AND I just noticed that instead of saying why I feel scared, I explained why I feel guilty. In short, I feel scared, because I took this stance about going for “my dream” and though it has only been 2 months, I don’t want to think that it isn’t possible to attain. Whenever it crosses my mind, I get scared that I was wrong. Making a big deal about quitting my job to do what I want, and not succeeding will just show that I am a failure, and I am not ready to admit that, or to EVER admit it. Let’s just hope that when the right time comes, it’ll be worth it, hopefully it’ll be soon.

On a brighter note, I have decided to start another blog. HAHA. I can’t even keep this one up to date, and I have decided to start another blog already? Well, I figured since I have been gradually becoming more domesticated lately, I would put up the recipes that I have been creating when I had my cravings. I wanted to continue with the youtube cooking shows, however, I have yet to get a tripod or a camera man to assist me with the videoing, so that’ll have to be put off till later…when I come back from my VACATION. Oh yea, the blog is going to be called HungryHungryWu. I will put up the link, or link it to my profile once I have my first entry.

So, going from being scared/guilty, I am going to be going off to Taiwan next week to visit my grandparents and to spend Chinese New Year with them. I am pretty excited, because there should be no reason why I shouldn’t be excited about going on vacation to Taiwan, other than I will be a bit embarrassed once family members begin to ask me what I am doing with my life… and then I will be feeling those judgy eyes on me, judging me about how immature I am to think I can just do what I want right now. BUT all I gotta do is just remind myself that I am the only one who has the right to judge myself. And, as of now my judgement of myself is that I am not worthlless, nor naive, I knew this wasn’t going to be easy so I gotta keep trying. Anyways, TAIWAN…there’s not much to say other than I will be eating delicious FRESH VEGETABLES, FRUIT, FISH, SOYMILK, every single FRIGGIN DAY, and enjoying WARMER weather than what we’re experiencing now…so HA, GO ME! I CAN’T WAIT!!

That’s enough of an update for now. When I have more things happening to me, hopefully these posts will be better. I love you all! Stay beautiful, kind, and keep on smiling!

-WuMarksTheSpots

Making Moves

Hihi my darlings!

I know I haven’t posted in awhile but I’ve been pretty busy with my life. SO much has been happening that I didn’t really have much time to just sit with my thoughts and blog! But I finally took the time to update y’all on my life and my skin of course!

First off, I finally QUIT MY JOB! It was the best decision of my life, and do not regret it at all! If you couldn’t tell from my previous posts, I was absolutely miserable at my work! I am not going to rant/bash on the company and/or management, but it just wasn’t for me. I believe my choice was made when I made my first blog post. Like I have said over and over again, I want to do something that means something. I want to make a difference in someone’s life and I was not doing that by sitting behind a computer screen, make that 2 computer screens, and being undervalued for the work I put in. A big part of why I felt so useless was because of the job I had. It is a pretty typical desk job, with awesome coworkers which is the only reason why I lasted as long as I did there. But nonetheless, I do appreciate having that job, because if I wasn’t so depressed/angry/stressed there, I probably wouldn’t have quit and had enough courage to leave that safe job and switch careers into the FITNESS INDUSTRY to follow my passion.

Now what have I been up to that made me too busy to blog? Well other than figuring out my plans after quitting my job, haha I went back to California! I went to take a workshop for becoming a group fitness instructor in POPPILATES. Now if you do not know what that is, well, it was created by this chick Cassey Ho, who I also got to personally meet, and I seriously FAN GIRLED! She is probably the most famous person I have ever met in my life, hence my fangirling. Anyways, it was the most inspiring, fun, relaxing “vacation” I ever had! I learned so much during the workshops, and it truly inspired me even more to follow what I wanted to do. I met so many amazing people there that supported my thinking and decision for quitting my job and doing what I truly want to do! The most nerve racking part about the trip was coming home to face reality and to work up the courage to explain everything to my family.

I know my family will always support me, and just want me to be happy, BUT they also have expectations for me. In short, I threw in my 2 weeks notice, and then decided to tell my family about my decision because I knew they would try to change my mind. As of now, they may not fully support me yet because I have not succeeded, but they aren’t hating on it either. I still believe in myself, and this is still a decision that I have made for myself and am very proud that I was brave enough to even do it so haters gonna hate hate hate but I’m just gonna shake shake shake. HAHA. 

That’s actually really all that I’ve been up to! I’m done with my desk job, and am now just practicing my pilates routine, and setting up classes so that I can practice teaching my friends/students. If you’re interested, please let me know and I’ll schedule/set up a class! I’ve also just been enjoying my life without all the social media stuff. I’m not the best at updating my life on the web, facebook, twitter, etc…because I’d rather just embrace the moments that I’m in, instead of halting them with pictures, but I’ll try to get better at it.

As for my skin, well most of them have dried up and the first layer has peeled off, other than on my lower legs. So today I decided to try to frank coffee body scrub that I got to see if it truly will help with psoriasis. Today is the first day I tried it tho, so I will update again in a few weeks if there were any changes. Pictures are below…(BOYS sorry, I’m not sorry for the hairiness. It is pretty difficult to shave around every single rash, so I just didn’t…plus it’s the winter. OH WELL more to keep me warm)

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Love y’all!

-Wu

Diet Shm-iet

Hihi my darlings!

Here is a quick little update on my status. Health-wise, I am recovering from last weekend when I had a few glasses of wine, and then puking after the shot of vodka… Lets just say that it was NOT worth it at all –I should totally just stick to tequila HAHA JKJK. I am unsure as to how my body really reacted that way, since I am usually pretty good with my liquor, but I guess there is still some bug/cold inside of my body that just did not agree with my actions. It was very stupid of me to take that shot, when I really did not want to, and yet I did. So I puked all day Sunday, took off Monday to rest, and went back to work on Tuesday which was just as miserable as being sick at home. But on the plus side, I am feeling much better, and am currently eating a gluten-free double chocolate pound cake with a hot cup of chai…and speaking of gluten-free…

I am not following a gluten-free diet anymore- haha, me and commitment. I really was trying my best to follow it, and for the most part it wasn’t that difficult until it came to eating out. If I got invited out for dinner or drinks, many things are not gluten-free on the menu, and waiters/waitresses do not know whether it is or not… unless I am meeting up at some hipster cafe/bistro place where it would be labeled. It seriously was stressing me out, because I wanted to eat; But I didn’t want to cause problems for the staff even if I am a customer. I’d rather not risk having a special recipe of the staff’s loogies on my “gluten-free” burger. Plus, after I finally stopped puking and had an appetite again, my dad fed me massive bowls of noodles, and at that point I did not care about my gluten-free diet. I am trying to reduce my stress, not add another factor onto the list- thus no more gluten-free diet. My diet now is obviously still very healthy with lots of fruits/vegetables, fish-proteins, whole grains, and some sweet indulgences when I feel like it. The best way for ME to be stress-free is to just eat whatever I’m craving. Since my diet has always been pretty healthy (extra healthy in college), I usually crave healthy foods like juicy salads, fresh fruit, or tomatoes. Of course, once in awhile I will want me a BIG grilled HOTDOG ;], or some yummy PIZZA, and my diet will kindly allow these foods to enter my belly, because my mouth says so! But forreals, food has always been a wonderful aid in my stress/happiness that I just cannot limit myself, and I don’t get why I tried to fool myself that I could put a limit to it. If something is not you, don’t force yourself. Props to those who could stick to a strict diet regimen, but as for me, the inner fatty in me does not allow it. No, it is not because I am a quitter, or I am weak, I just don’t want to. It does not make me happy doing it, and if it is not causing any serious harm to my body, then why restrict myself? Now if only I could stick to not buying shoes…NOT.

So back to my health, I went to a reliable dermatologist and he confirmed that what I have is guttate psoriasis. The best treatment is UV-light treatment, which I could get from the sun, if it wasn’t getting so darn cold outside. So that is the next step, to do some research on light treatment…OR excuse myself to go on a trip once a month to someplace warm and sunny! I enjoy that idea better, hehe. As for my condition, I have not seen any new bumps which is good, and my SCALES-yes, call me TOOTHLESS– are drying and flaking off, so I am slathering aveeno like no other on me. And mentally I am getting through each day by focusing on what I want to do in life, which is working towards ways to break out into the fitness industry. I will update later on about that whole spiel =].

Finally,I will end with a few pictures of adventures that I have been on recently, and foods that I have been eating! I went to an oyster festival last week, and to a farm today during my lunch break. I usually try to go exploring on my lunch breaks while at work especially since it is still nice out-gotta get that UV LIGHT- and just to give me some sanity during the day- plus I was craving cider donuts which they ran out of when I got to the farm today =[. OH WELL. Leave me some hugsss, questions, comments, emoticons, and smilessss!

Loveeee you all!
-Wu

To Appreciate

Verbal Confirmation – To be, to have, to think, to move — which of these verbs is the one you feel most connected to? Or is there another verb that characterizes you better?

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Appreciation is so overlooked, and everyday I try to remind myself what I am appreciative of, and to let others know I appreciate them. Appreciation goes a long way, especially with relationships. I bet that if you told someone that you appreciated them, they would not NOT appreciate the comment (haha confusing). Have you ever really sat down and thought of all the things you’re appreciative of? I appreciate all the people in my life. I appreciate all the tangible things I own. I appreciate all the food I get to eat and drink. I appreciate living and breathing right NOW! Sure, there is a list of things I do not appreciate in my life right now, but why dwell on those? Dwell on all the things that are worth appreciating and that are worth thinking about.

Right now I especially appreciate a certain friend of mine who sent me a surprise scarf in the mail! Ohhhh how I appreciate unexpected, soft, pretty, PRESENTS! =]

The Beginning

Hihi my darlings!

Majority of you are wondering why I’m starting this blog, and it’s because it is not only for me, but for others who need support. I want to spread awareness of my condition… which I am proud to announce that I have PLAQUE PSORIASIS. My biopsy results have finally come back after 3 weeks of having these beautiful red bumps over my body, and the result is, well Psoriasis.

One of the ways to feel comfortable in public with my appearance is to help spread awareness about Psoriasis. And by spreading awareness, hopefully others will begin to feel more comfortable and confident about their appearances too. Now, since my dermatologist who basically told me to do my own research online (clearly I am never going back to this doc. and have already made an appointment with someone else, so no worries), I frighteningly drove home to do my research on this chronic disease (which is the only fact the doc. told me… how supportive -_-). Anyways, here are some general facts that sums it up.

  • It is NOT contagious. (So gimme more and more hugs!!!)
  • It is an autoimmune disease that causes raised red, patchy scales on the body
  • There are different types of Psoriasis and they can range in severity
  • There is no definitive cure, but there are treatments
  • Triggers of Psoriasis include upper respiratory infections, strep, tonsillitis, injury to skin, drugs, and STRESS (so next time you freak out about that email at work, take a deep breath and think again!)

If you would like to learn more, you can read more here.

In my research, I also found that it is quite a common disease, and affects some celebrities as well! The most inspiring celebrity being CariDee English (America’s Next Top Model 2006), who even posted up pictures of her with psoriasis on her skin! She did it to motivate others, and I am doing this blog to help motivate and support others as well! I will be posting up pictures as well in a later post on my condition, to show what it is I am going through, as well as results of when I go through natural treatments I researched online and am willing to try.

So going back to the whole point of this blog. If you know me, you will know that I am quite a natural girl. I live and eat pretty healthily (probably a bit more than average healthy), and yet I received this disease. Though I don’t know what exactly triggered this flare, I am going to assume it’s stress. Honestly, I have been very depressed and stressed for the past couple of months. If you ask me why, I could just continue on and on about everything that I am unsatisfied about in my life, but I will not bore you with that now. Let me just say that if you are reading this, you are most likely a friend, a future friend I hope, or an acquaintance; and I am not writing about this to guilt you for your comfort, to guilt you in getting back in touch, nor to guilt you for not acknowledging my depression. I do not blame anyone for this other than myself, and I have already forgave myself the night I found out I had it. This is definitely not worth the stress and depression that I was going through, but regardless “everything happens for a reason“.

Whenever an event that truly impacts my life and my way of living occurs, I believe that there is some reason for it. So what is the meaning of getting psoriasis? Well that is what I am trying to make happen now! Part of my depression was feeling quite useless. In general, I felt useless, like life was meaningless (haha, how vague -_-). Everyday became so mundane and habitual that things slowly began to feel meaningless. I know I know, “that’s the way the working life is”…but that’s not what I want! Something in me just kept feeling like this is NOT IT! There has got to be more to life! I have got to make an impact on someone’s life, because then I would truly feel like I have succeeded (not to be morbid, but the way I always wanted to die was in a heroic way, like pushing a kid out of the street right before getting hit by a car, heh so CHEESY). Anyways, maybe now I can make that impact for someone! Maybe, by spreading my thoughts, my words of encouragement, and just my overall happiness and quirkiness, I can be that much closer in succeeding my goal. I never wanted those around me to worry about me because my goal is not to have others worry about me, but for others to just enjoy my company, and to be happy just being around me. Thus, having you read this right now is one step closer to the whole goal of this blog, and I appreciate the time you have taken to read this.

What’s the next step? Well like I said, this is going to be about the path I will be taking to help treat my psoriasis, and to help provide support for others. As mentioned before, I am a natural girl. I do not want to be taking any drug specifically for these flare ups, and I want to try to tame it in the most natural way as possible. Right now, however I am only half natural, with applying a topical gel on my bumps, just because I am still not 100% sure how severe my condition is, and etc. However, yesterday I started my gluten free diet. I never ate that much gluten to begin with, but after doing much research online, many people have stated that gluten free diets can help prevent flare ups and to tame the bumps. So, even though I loveeee me some yummy cardboard (wheat) toast, and pizza, I have given it up. And luckily, rice is gluten-free, otherwise I’d be a pretty bad asian. HAHA. Anyways, I will post up some pictures of my gluten free meals, and my overall lifestyle to this blog (or an instagram if you guys think it’s a good idea?) too to provide ideas or suggestions for stress relievers. Changing my diet is already a pretty big deal for me since I have never been OVERLY strict with my diet before, so doing this for a good 2-3 weeks will be a bit difficult. But I want to do it for all of you and for myself. Baby steps on this bumpy road…

Thank you all for taking the time to read/skim through my first post! Please leave me comments, suggestions, questions, or emojis! I love you all!